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Wednesday, 20 March 2013
A day of food for an anorexic vegetarian
I just want to first give a big thank you
to all the people who read my blog yesterday.
The amount of
support and views has been overwhelming, I'm very honoured.♥
Alright back to business.
Today i will be documenting what i eat in a day using photos.
I think it will be a big eye opener for me and
to anyone else suffering with anorexia.
The idea is that i take a photo document the
time and i might give a brief description on the food and how I’m feeling
throughout the day
Also I better give you a little background info:
I am 21 years old, I weigh 59kg and I’m a size 8 -10, and 5'3 tall.
I have had issues with eating when i was 15 -16,
then i gained weight slowly after High school. By the time i was 19 and I
weighed 82kg and was a size 14 -16.
Then i started to count calories and the weight just
When i was 20 - 21 I got deeper into my restricting.
Although i wasn't loosening very much weight anymore I became addicted to
counting calories the complements that people were giving me everyday and the
smaller clothes i could now fit into. I would feel wrong if I ate over a certain
number for the day.
On my 21st birthday i went out to breakfast and
dinners with friends, and after i would go to the bathroom and make myself
Having bacon and eggs or pasta inside me made me
I had been doing this sort of thing for a while
on and off, Christmas is a big one, and birthdays or holidays. Really any occasion
where there is a lot of food.
But I hardly purge now, I find it's better to
just make sure i don’t eat over 600 calories for the day, and keep restricting.
I just have to make sure I stay away from
cheese, peanut butter, nuts, chips, biscuits, cakes, or any baked goods.
You get the idea; it clearly occupies a large amount
of precious space in my brain.
And if this sounds like you, you will know that80% is will power and 20% is planning purging
So please read and reflect, and anyone who is
going through this; I’m here and please stay safe, I don't want any of my
readers to die.♥
Warning. This is not a healthy diet to follow;
youcan notlive off600 caloriesin a day or under.
If you are suffering with an eating
disorder in Australia
you can get help at:
After Dinner snack - 82 Calories Day Total - 384 Calories So I guess that's it, I did it. I managed to stay under 400 Calories for the entire day. This is good, on a normal day i'm sitting on about 480-550 calories. Honestly i think it was the pressure of an audience that kept me from over eating. You see, Anorexic people do eat and to the untrained eye it can look like we eat like normal people. But you see i have spent a long time finding foods that are under 60 calories and lunches that are under 100, It's all painful planning and calculating. Evan if this blog post doesn't apply to you i hope it has at least open your eyes and maybe you know someone who eats like me and i will help you to recognize an eating disorder, it could be hiding in plane sight. Stay tuned, my next post will be about my experience on some harmless synthetic marijuana turned ugly in ways that only i know how. Thanks for reading. The Awkward Girl xoxo
I would like to dedicate this post to all the lovely
people onLive Journalwho have supported me. You are all such wonderful people
who have provided me with a place I can feel safe to express my deepest fears
and most intimate feelings without any judgement.